Making new memories. Cherish old memories.

Baby bump at 23 weeks and counting....

2011-08-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

This is how I look now. 23 weeks happily pregnant. And we're expecting for a BOY! It's what my husband and I have been praying for. Thank God for giving us what we asked for. <3 Everyone's excited! My mom and elder brother... our friends and people who know and support us with our way to parenthood.

My doctor says I'm skinny though baby boy growing normal. However, we need to have a balanced weight. So, I need to gain more together with the little angel. And so, after 2 weeks from the day my doc told me I'm under weight, this is now how I look like. Bump now is visible! And I'm excited about it. These photos were just taken earlier today!
Praise the Lord!

Inside my womb at 10 weeks

2011-07-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

This is our first ultrasound taken last May 7,2011 and our baby was 10 weeks old inside my womb.

It was one of the best and unforgettable experiences for me and my partner, Enting.

At first, Enting was a bit uncomfortable looking at my position and was about to see the start of the whole procedure. I didn't look at his face at first coz I might just laugh.

But when he started smiling and couldn't even say a single word, I knew he already saw our baby!!!

The person in-charge was still doing her thing so I was the last person inside the room to see my little one.

And when the lady turned the screen towards me, there it was. The first sight of my baby, made me feel that everything in the past and the present was worth the experience. Because I know somewhere along the road, I've done something right to have a partner so good like Enting and a baby to prove our love for each other.

Our little one at 10 weeks is healthy and has a good cardiac activity. ♥ Thank God!

But what was more amazing for a new mother like me was to see how the future father reacted upon seeing the little one via the machine. He's very happy and excited about our baby to come and I know he loves me and our baby so much.

This whole experience of having our first ultrasound made us even a stronger couple. ♥

Things happen for a reason.

2011-06-06T09:54:00.000-07:00

Last night, I read something on my Facebook news feed, one of the most wonderful thing a girlfriend can tell her boyfriend. It was an album of their first year anniversary as boyfriend-girlfriend and has a description that says:

I remember our weekend in Bantayan,
I forced you to wake up 5am just to see the sunrise,
I told you I was going to go regardless,
Sunrise?? All we saw were heavy dark clouds and the sun was hiding.

Because although I said it didn't matter to me,
I really wanted us to spend every second on the island,
I wanted to share the sunset, the sunrise even the rain,
and thankfully, we enjoyed every minute of it.

Because of course we had such a wonderful time,
and we have done so ever since day 1,
and I love you more than ever,
and I love you in every single way.

Happy 1st birthday to us,
For you, I thank the Lord above,
You've given me hope inspiration and truth,

because of you, I feel never-ending joy.

I was teary eyed when I read and saw the photos. They look so happy together.

I am happy that somehow I was one of the reasons they found each other. If not for me, the guy wouldn't realize his worth.

I was his ex-girlfriend. His first "real" love. But I was never in love with him. I was hurt by someone else before him. And I've made sure I would not be in love anymore unless the guy would love me head over heels. Indeed, he was the right guy. So, I took him as a boyfriend. Or rather, I used him to move on.

He never knew I wasn't in love. The least that I could do was to make him feel loved in return.

Because he gave me everything. LITERALLY.

One call from me, he'd be on my doorstep.

One request from me, he'd have his hands all ready for me.

One word from me, he'd be on his knees.

But I was fed up pretending. There was no one else involved. I just didn't love him at all.

I broke his heart. I didn't even feel guilty at all when I broke up with him. I thought to myself we were young and he could easily move on.

He never hated me. He begged for me to go back. And I just told him the most common and lousy alibi:

"It's not about you. It's about me. I have my own issues that I have to fix myself. I need to do it on my own. When I'll be ready, I'll be back."

But I knew deep down inside me, there was no turning back. It was the end of my pretense.

But he was still there... even at the middle of the night. He checked on me from time to time. And most of the time when I needed something, he'd be more than willing to be there for me. LITERALLY.

Then weeks after, he tried to ask me if I was ready to have him back. And I felt so bad...so bad when I told him, "No, I can't. I am no longer in love with you. I just wanna be alone for now."

And then he asked me back with his most sincere voice, "Have you ever loved me before?"

I had to stick to my own lies, "Yes,of course. I have loved you. You made me happy. And I thank you for that. But we just have to move on separately."

Months after I left him, I felt guilty whenever I think about what I did. But I knew I had to and there was no way to do it but break his heart.

And I never heard from him anymore until he added me up on Facebook last month.

We belong to the same batch in college and classmates back in elementary. So, we have a group in Facebook for the entire batch (elementary) which we are both members of.

I guess it was a sign that he already forgave and forgot what happened when he added me up on Facebook though we haven't talked online yet.

And then I saw who his girlfriend is. The same girl who was there for him when I left him... the same girl who asked me why I left him... the same girl he helped moved on from her past.

And I am happy. Happy for them, that things turned out so nice after all.

And most especially, I AM HAPPY AND CONTENTED WITH MY LIFE AND PARTNER.

My ex-boyfriend and his girlfriend have found their happiness in each other's comfort.

I have found my life and my true love.

We're all happy.

Our first of the many summers

2011-06-02T20:51:00.000-07:00

We didn't know my classmate took a photo of us.

This was really random and candid.

And I remember this moment.

I was telling him how hot he is and how much I love the way he he is everyday.

This is just the start of our many summers together. ♥

First Ever Get Together with CNU-ILS Batch 2006

2011-05-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

It has been 5 long years since we walked out of Cebu Normal University - Integrated Laboratory School and finished our highschool life. We promised to see each other even after graduation and we've gone to different universities.

Let me give you a brief background of our school and batch.

Highschool students from CNU-ILS have been called the "cream of the crop", "the best of the best" and the "chosen few". The school only accepts maximum of 50 students out of thousands of applicants and go through extensive screening with their written aptitude exams and qualifying requirements. When you're a graduate of this school, they definitely know you're brilliant and an exceptional student.

Our batch has been composed of Class Valedictorians, Salutatorians and honor students from different primary schools. So, you know why we are called the chosen few. =)

And to prove that, we have Razel Mae Libot ranked 10th placer on the recent Nursing Licensure Board Exams 2010 with an average of 84.60 and Viktor Xenon Lequin ranked 4th placer on the recent CPA Board Exams 2011 with an average of 91.57. Isn't that a big wow for our classmates? Cheers!

So, back to our first ever get together, the organizing team included our Senior Class President Mariz Asoy, my bestfriend Mariz Go and yours truly made it all possible last May 21,2011 at Mariz Go's residence in Kisanta, Talisay City.

We were only 7 who arrived at the agreed time and venue:

L-R: Yours truly, my bestfriends Pearl and Mariz Go,

Jan Kyle, cousins Franklin and Winchelle and Abigail.

We had lunch together and surprisingly had Franklin do all the talking. He wasn't like this back in highschool. He was the silent-type math whiz.

After lunch, we went to the pool side and did all the catching ups there and went for a swim. Later on, we had more classmates coming over.

We had Nize, Mon, Mariz Asoy and Zendelle added. Franklin had to leave early.

From 50 down to 46 classmates graduated together last March 2006. Some have migrated abroad and some have work to do during the get together, so only a few made it to the get together. However, we were all happy because we had 2 batchmates (Nize and Kyle ) who only went to our school for 2 years, were able to make it on this special day with us and though we started only 7 of us, but later that evening, we had more classmates who shared dinner with us. All in all, we were all happy and even those who didn't make it want a get together part 2!

L-R standing: Yours truly, Zendelle,Janelle, Mariz Go, Pearl, Kyle,Mon and Abby.

L-R sitting: Mariz Asoy, Beulah, Winchelle, Juliemae and Nize

Special Thanks to our partners who took our batch pictures: Michael for Mariz Go and my super hottt partner, Enting who took the photos for this blog.

My partner Enting took the batch photos for this blog. Thanks, Babe!

It started with a...

2011-05-16T01:10:00.000-07:00

It started with this photo he took for me on my birthday

and posted it on my Facebook wall.

He wore a green shirt since my favorite color is GREEN.

He calls me BABE because we call each other Baby Love.

I first called him BUNGEE for a while that time

after he once kept on saying the word Bungee (jump) over the phone.

My Life and Love Partner ♥

2011-05-15T20:44:00.000-07:00

My life and love partner.

With the look on his face, I know it's for real.

This time, I need not to wait.

He will always be there for me through thick and thin.

I love you now and always.

(Photo taken last May 11,2011 in Cebu City)

Back in Davao!

2011-04-12T01:50:00.000-07:00

As what I have said in my previous post, I went on a trip last week for work.

I was destined over the weekend for Davao City, the third biggest city in the Philippines and a part of Mindanao. I was assigned to invite and interact with our media friends in Davao for the press launch of Globe Prepaid Superlahat20 promotion exclusive for Davao area only.

I arrived on Friday, April 8 and checked in Casa Leticia over the night. It is located at the heart of the city, across from Davao's recreational park, the People's Park and a walking distance to a shopping mall, hospital, church, restaurants and fast food chains. Literally, almost everything you need are just a walking distance. Everything I am going to mention down in this post were near the hotel except for F. Torres St which I had to take a cab going to and from the hotel.

the welcome area between the lobby and the coffee shop

at their coffee shop where I had my breakfast

I spent my early childhood in this very beautiful and peaceful city and had the best memories with my family. My father was the Regional Director of the Department of Transportation and Communications for Region XI while my mom was a housewife and my brother went to Ateneo de Davao for school. I was then between 3-9 years old that time and I had everything I needed and even wanted. I love our neighbors and the people who worked under my Dad. They all pampered me so well.

So, on my first night back in Davao last weekend, I went to Victoria Plaza, the grandest mall during our stay more than a decade ago. It was no longer the same mall I could remember but I felt nostalgic about everything. I even saw the McDonald's branch beside Victoria Plaza where my brother and I usually spent time at their mini playground.

I saw the usual places we passed by before. Gen. Malvar Street, Felcris, Kusina Dabaw, Davao Doctors.

I also went to F. Torres Street and dropped by the main branch of Coffee Cat and had my cup of yogurt. Yum! Definitely, this topped my first night back in Davao!

Long Distance no more. ♥

2011-04-07T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

If it wasn't for Melody-Mae, I could have not gone back to post something new today. It's been a while since the last time I had a real post done in here.

I've been very busy these past few weeks. Guess why.

It's no longer a long distance relationship between me and my partner, Enting. ♥ ♥ ♥

I have finally decided to move back to Cebu City after a year of staying in Manila, the capital city of the Philippines. It's all for good reasons. Obviously, you already know one of them.

Firstly, my partner is one of the factors that pushed me to move back. It ain't easy to be away from each other and a lot more expensive flying back and forth from my city to his.

Secondly, my new job. I have been working in the BPO industry for almost 4 years now and the most recent call center I worked for had been the only job I had been serious about without having any attendance issue. (hahaha!) And when I have started my job there, I already have told myself never will I resign for another call center. It only means, it's gonna be the last center I'd be working for. So when finally, I was in the process of making my choice between staying in Manila and moving back to Cebu, I have made sure that a job was already waiting for me in Cebu. And it should not be a call center job. I'm just done with it.

I am now working for a local public relations and marketing firm as an public relations manager for specific accounts. It has been something I love doing since I entered the media world as a journalist and event producer. The pay isn't as high as what I was receiving from the BPO industry, but the pleasure it's giving me is more than enough.

So, you see... I have been really busy since I came back here. Busy with work, family and spending time with my partner.

What I love about my job? It's travelling. Plus it's expense-free!

Not only do I have to be in the city I love, get to be with my family and spend a lot of time with my partner, I still get to travel!

I bid farewell to you, long distance relationship!

Hello, my family and friends!

Cheers to forever with my partner!

my two coffee bestfriends, my brother and his girl and my partner!

HELLO SUMMER 2011!

2011-03-22T01:07:00.000-07:00

originally planned but things turned out so random!

drizzling on a Saturday by the beach.

i had my partner to hug me from those big waves coming our way. I loved how I

felt so secured when he hugged me tight then I close my eyes, so ready to be hit

by those strong waves and still holding each other's hands even after the waves

went by. ♥ ♥ ♥

special thanks to my Mommy for preparing our food for the beach, though it was

really a short notice for her.

together with us were Clau and my big bro who both went crazy laughing over

my girls' craziness. hahahaha!

fun, fun, fun beach day with my coffee besties, Marsha and Mayan.

Love, love, love and much in love with my baby, Enting. ♥ ♥ ♥

Cry in Silence

2011-02-16T05:09:00.000-08:00

And so I cried. Not because I am hurting. I cry because I love him.
You know the kind of tears you have to suppress because you are at work with people around yet you miss the only person whom you love and loves you back the way no one ever did in the past?

Answer: Cry in silence.

I know his visit over the Valentine's weekend was just a short term since had to go back to his city for school. He had to be back yesterday and it was the most gloomy day I ever had. I know we will be with each other again in God's time but I just can't help missing him so much once he'd go back home.

So, yesterday came. We spent remaining hours of his visit awake, watching one of my favorit character movie Batman on his laptop and of course I've made love with the most amazing man I have in my life. Insatiable, it is!

His flight was as 07:35 on Monday, Feb 14. It was already between 3am and 4am and I felt it was too hard to handle to see him go home, so I told him after crying, "I will sleep while you pack your things. Wake me up when you're ready."

Then he woke me up and said, "Babe, wake up...Wake up. I am ready to go."

Then I stood up straight away and hugged him tight. Tears came flowing again. But he had to go So I told him, "I am not gonna go out and see you leave the gate. Please lock it yourself. I just wanna sleep."

And so he was about to go out of my room and I looked away because I could not take it and went back to sleeping to drown the tears away.

And now I have to endure the distance between us. I feel gloomy about him away from me. But I am happy because I am crying not because I am hurting. I know that he loves me so much. I just have to be patient.

The Valentine's Weekend.

2011-02-15T01:48:00.000-08:00

And so the Valentine's weekend has commenced.

We started counting down from 10 days to the V Day and we can't wait to be with each other again! On the day of his arrival, we both were so excited that I slept the whole day to wake up just in time for his flight to my city. We had to meet each other halfway because traffic here in Manila, Philippines is unbearable. It will take forever for me to go to the airport and come back to my place with him. So, we've decided I would see him in SM Megamall.

Whooop! His flight was on time!

I got myself ready when he was already on the plane from Cebu to Manila last February 11. Off I went to the mall and had yet another giddy jittery feeling inside my tummy. I was killing a few minutes at the National Bookstore when he called up and said, he already got off the MRT (train station) and was on his way to the mall.

I walked to the nearest entrance from the MRT station and was looking at some book sale on the shelves nearby when I got another call from him saying he was already inside and we were looking for each other and there he was - the most handsome loving man in my life.

I walked my way to him fast and hugged him straight away and kissed him ardently thinking of no one else but him.

We looked at each other, feeling the excitement in us and then we knew right there and then, it's gonna be a weekend of insatiable love.

(to be continued...)

The Prologue

2011-02-10T02:31:00.000-08:00

I officially start my 24-hour contdown right this very minute to a weekend full of him. ♥

This is going to be our first Valentine's Day together. Everything seems to come in perfect timing. Today is our second week as a couple and he will be flying over to my city to spend the Valentine's weekend with me. You bet I am so excited to see him again. Yes, we are in a long distance relationship and we started this way exactly 2 months ago so we're a bit used to this setting.

Last January 26, I went home to Cebu where he is based right now with his studies and it was the best 5-day off from work I have ever spent. Because it was very well spent with the best guy in my life. He picked me up at the airport and I had butterflies in my tummy before I went down the plane. He and I have been friends for quite a while but the "courtship" started last December with me here in Manila and he in Cebu.

It was not your typical courtship where the girl and the guy would at least meet up after school or work and hang out over a cup of coffee, watch a movie or go malling. No, we didn't have those stuff.

He is currently based in Cebu City (Philippines) and I am here in Manila (Philippines) which is an hour flight from one city to the other. He is a student while I stopped school temporarily and is working since 2007. We've know each other since highschool when he was my Filipina-American cousin's ex-boyfriend. But I knew him before that.

I was hearing stories from my ex-boyfriend about his classmates. He named only one of his clasmates which I first heard of my current boyfriend's name. He was sent back to our hometown, Leyte to compelete highschool. So, I never heard stories about him from my ex. Then, I spent the summer in Leyte back in our senior year and then my cousin told me about her boyfriend that time and when she first mentioned his name, it rung a bell. And so I asked her if he and the guy I heard from my ex were the same. Indeed, it was him. So, I invited them over to our house with her mom and uncle. That was then the first time I saw the boy who in the future would make me know what love is.

Years passed, he and I broke up with our respective exes. My cousin went back to Florida. We went on to college in separate schools in Cebu. Facebook was made and if I remember it right, I was the one who added him up in my friends' list. And so, we were Facebook friends. Nothing special.

We never saw each other in Cebu for the entire time that we were in the same city. I saw him once in a coffee shop but he didn't see me though. So, our lives went on separately.

I was having coffee with my buddies at our favorite coffee shop, Seattle's Best in the afternoon and would have dinner at our favorite pasta place, Roma Mia and spent the rest of my idle time in Ayala Terraces after work. Still, I never saw him there. I had a few flings here and there. I broke up with one ex to another.
And only he knew what was going on with his life.

Something or someone rather broke my heart and it was one of the factors for a turning point in my life. I have been thinking of going to another city and have a break from the very life that I was used to - booze, parties, smoke, late night-out and even sleepless nights with my friends and spending my salary over unnecessary things. I was receiving a generous pay but I saved nothing. Then our company was bought off by another contact center and laid us off in the process of the company merger. So, I thought things over and over again. But then again, I went back to my old party life.

It was summer last year when my mom and I were about to spend a short vacation here in Manila. I brought clothes good for a week or two. Then a week passed in Manila, I got bored without having a job. I woke up on a Thursday morning and decided to walk around Ortigas, the nearest business district from our place. I brought along with me a map and a few copies of my resume. Yes, I applied for a job and got accepted by the only company I went it to within that day and was asked to start on Monday for the training.

There and then, I've decided that I will stay in the city and start anew.

(to be continued...)

No one else but you.

2011-02-03T09:18:00.000-08:00

Randomly, my boyfriend sent me this message.

Picturing out those precious moments with you. The way our bodies collide in bed. Your soft lips lock with mine. Caressing every inch of your body. Those eyes that pierce through mine. Whispering "I love you"...holding your hand like there's no tomorrow. God, I wanted to stop the time in those moments where everything is just perfect.

Then I sent him my response:

Awww, Babeeeee! You're making me cry. Cry because I miss you. Because I wanna be with you. And only because I love you so much that nothing and no one else means so much to me but you. Yes, your hands fit perfectly with mine. Your eyes that can see me through. Your lips that taste sweet on mine. Your hugs that comfort me. Your love that makes me feel like love will never be even better than what we have. You are just the best, Babe.

And then he said,

"I just miss you so much, baby. You mean a lot to me. Sorry if I'm making you cry. I'm just sharing what I feel. I love you so much. No one else can have my heart but you."

A very sweet message from my guy.

2011-01-24T01:48:00.000-08:00

"I love you so much, baby... I wanna be with you forever. I want to grow old with you. Just you and me. I want to show you how much I love and care about you. I need you baby... Hope nothing will change between us. I am so in love with you."

- E 01/24/11

I just can't wait to be with him in 2 days time. I love him like I have never ever loved and been hurt before. He came in my life at the very unexpected time when I am not in the look out for love. Love does move in mysterious way when you least expect it.

M.I.A no more.

2011-01-18T01:36:00.001-08:00

I guess I am back. =)

It's been a while since the last time I got my fingers tapping on this keyboard. A lot hass changed. A lot has happened. A lot of ups and downs, and you bet I am stronger now like everyone else who goes through each and every day of his lfe - one at a time.

Updates about me?

I am here now in Manila for a vacation turned to another job for myself. I have been here since Summer of 2010 for just a 2-week vacation til I got bored and walked down the business district and got myself in another BPO center.

It's been running 9 months now and I am living the life away from what I was used to.

Less drinking, much sleep, much focus for work, much savings, much eating, alone but never lonely.

I feel lighter now that I only get to do things that I only needs to be done minus those unnecessary activities in the past. My daily routine would be home to office and vice versa on weekdays and then some food trip on my rest days. I occassionally drink with some colleagues or with my Cebuano friends who are in the city. I still get wasted when I want to once or twice a month just to release stress and still be that care free person I was and then goes back to my routinary life.

I once told myself I need something like this months before I have even decided to come over this part of the country.

Indeed, I do. And I am here now.

No regrets.

YSTILO SUGBUWANON on its 2nd part @ CLUB VIBE

2009-06-17T19:50:00.000-07:00

we blasted it off at VUDU
now we’re taking it to another level.

GARB
presents

YSTILO SUGBUWANON

featuring the designs of:
LORIMER VILLAREAL
CHRIS TATLONGHARI

in cooperation with
CIRCA MODELS
MIKKI ROQUE-ARAGON
SMITTEN ACCESSORIES
PANARTS ACCESSORIES

art performance by
RUSS LIGTAS OF XO? Performance Art Group

mixes by:
DJ SUBLIME

Come in your best masquerade-inspired attire,
and win a prize!

This is in part by:

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GARB has now returned

2009-06-04T19:56:00.000-07:00

Logo made by: Yves Camingue

GARB has now return to the scene of music, fashion, lifestyle, arts making it in one name.

GARB, a group of individuals bringing the best of their fields over to the metro.

MUSIC: Victoria Lago (OnLyViC Productions)
FASHION AND STYLE: Yves Camingue (Yves, Identify)
LIFESTYLE AND SCENE: Eden Villarba (WRock, Chic In The Tropics)
STYLE BLOGGER: Kristine Roa (Stylecebu.com)
DIRECTOR: Chiqz Espinoza

GARB has now returned!

A collaboration of friends with different things to offer and new ideas to show...

Your guide to fashion, style, music and arts...

Your partner in online media...

and your way to the scene. :)

Life has to go on for me and my family.

2009-02-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

"Kalma ra lageh kaayo ka?"

This is the most insensitive thing to say to me right now! If you are not my friend then don't try to be one.

I have lost my daddy but it doesn't mean I have to cry in front of you. I have my own ways of mourning. I cry but do I have to show it to people?

No.

I am the type of person who always wear a smile when I have to. I talk like nothing happened because I know it wouldn't be of any help if I would just stay in one corner and lose my sanity. I act like things are normal for me. I am still the same though I am grieving.

Life has to go on for me and my family. But I know it won't be that easy.

Kuya said earlier this mornig, " We have to start a new life with what Daddy has left for us."

Losing Dad this time when things are working out good makes me feel "sayangan" because he wouldn't be with us anymore.

I still can't believe that this time it is our family being condoled by people. I know that someday, death will come. But I wasn't expecting to lose Dad. Seeing him made me think that death was far from him -- far from reality.

I am going home to Leyte and I don't know how I should feel about it. I am afraid of seeing him. Coz I will know that he is really gone.

It is hard to accept things that I just wish everything is just a dream and tomorrow when I go back to Leyte, it will be just another family reunion. So, I wish. But I know it isn't a dream.

To my friends here, thank you so much for cheering me up. Being alone at home makes things hard for me. But your company makes it lighter to bear.

Darryl, Chaz, Au, Yves, Joel
--- thanks so much for being there for me when I first learned about the news.Having such friends is just one of the best things to have when I am down.

Lordy
--- for the company yesterday.

Bao of Pointblank
--- you are so sweet and I love you for being a friend to me. You made me smile when I cried.

To the guy I was with last night, thanks for the company. I had a great time.

To the people who offered their condolences, thanks a lot.

I have to thank a lot more people that it will be too long to enumerate. But you know how much I appreciate you,guys.

The best cook in my life -- my Dad.

2009-02-18T09:06:00.000-08:00

I was browsing on my photo albums here in multiply then I saw my cover on Bite Mag and I remembered my Dad.

My family and I celebrated Christmas here in Cebu. That was the last time I was with Dad before he passed away yesterday.

Everyday was a holiday for our family. We ate anywhere we wanted to. Dad treated us out everyday. He gave me everything I wanted.

It was my Dad who always gave me praises and compliments despite my Mom and Kuya's indifference of what I have been doing when it comes to bands,gigs and all.

One time, they were at Greenwhich. So after school, I went straight to SM because I wanted to eat some of their lasagna. Dad let me order anything I wanted. He gave me the biggest part of the chicken and he gave me the Pancit Malabon Mom had bought.

I got a copy of the Bite mag where I was on the cover and showed it to him, "Dad, tingnan mo ang cover. Nice noh?" I said then I laughed.

"Ako bitaw yan,Dad. Pag November man yan. The owner is a good friend of mine then tinawagan nya ako bigla pag October if pwede ako. Ganda,noh. Parang hindi ako."

Then I saw Dad's face smiling, "Marami ka pang copy dyan,Yang? Dalhin ko sa Leyte pag-uwi ko. Pakita ko dun sa atin."

"Marami pa,Dad. Binigyan kasi nila ako ng mga copies ko for that issue. Bigay ko sa yo."

Then Kuya came back from washing his hands and sat beside Dad. "O,Dward. Baka mabasa ang magazine ni Yang-Yang. Copy ko bya yan. Bigay nya sa akin."

I was so happy the whole time Daddy and I talked about the magazine. Mom and Kuya weren't interested about my kind of activities. At least, Dad was always there and showed me how I made him proud. He never failed to show his pride for me. Then he would say, "Basta ang studies mo, Yang ha. Baka napapabayaan mo na dahil sa mga lingaw-lingaw mo."

Though I have no longer been a very diligent student like I was before, I told Daddy, "Wala lagi Dad. Hindi naman rin conflict sa school,eh. At saka, in line pa rin naman sa Masscom,ah."

Last night, I was alone at home. Mom and Kuya were already in Leyte to fix things for Daddy.

I had to cook dinner for myself. I had spaghetti and toasted bread then ice cream for dessert. But before I ate, I cried again.

I will no longer have Dad to cook me my favorite vegetable dish, nilagang pork, kinilaw, any fish and chicken dish that he always have cooked for Mom, Kuya and me.

He was the best cook and Mom only came next to him then me!

My food will never be the same without Daddy cooking for me.

To my Dad.

2009-02-17T07:07:00.000-08:00

I was half awake when my mom told me about the dream she just had, "Yang, nakakatakot yung dream ko..." I listened to her then I remembered the dream I had weeks ago which scared me to death. I tried to interpret my dream when I woke up. I have this weird "gift" that what my dreams were are somewhat like visions of what would happen to my family. I always get to interpret dreams and I sort of get it just right.

So, when my mom shared her dream, it was just like what I had dreamt of. So, I answered her, "Mom, don't worry. It's nothing bad. It just means you're trying to get the bad things away from me. Not unless if you were not able to shoo those insects away from me."

My mom was a bit relieved, "Oh ok, so wala lang yun?"

I said, "Yes,mom... tulog muna ako ulit."

I fell asleep then I heard my mom talking so loud. She sounded shocked and worried, "Ha? Bag-o ra gani mi nagkastorya pag Sabado, day."

I thought to myself, "Naa siguro nahitabo sa Leyte. Maybe naaay namatay nga one of our relatives." Then I checked my phone and I got a few messages, one was from Darryl. So I replied to his message when my mom came inside my room, shocked, "Yang, si Daddy! Patay na daw!"

The worst news I ever got in all the mornings I have.

I was speechless and didn't know how to react. I turned my back away from Mommy and faced the wall. I cried silently which was more painful to bear. My mom made another call to my Aunt. I listened to their conversation and was still crying.

I didn't know what to think, do or say. Everything came so sudden.

My dad...of all, why him?

I had a class to catch so I stood up and took a bath, crying. Then I saw my mom crying as she was packing her things for Leyte. I tried not to look at her. It pains me more to see her cry that way. We talked for a while about our plan. We have no time to waste. My mom and Kuya had to leave today and I will be going home on Friday after my classes.

Then on my way to school, everything was so clear that the sun was blinding my eyes. All my memories with Dad made me cry so hard. I missed him so much.

Daddy was my "kakampi" all the way. He gave me money secretly whenever Mom got mad at me and cut my allowance off. He covered me up when my mom learned that a guy visited me in our house in Leyte. He favored me more than my Kuya because I was smart and independent. We played Chess. We love eating Asparagus. He would always surprise me with Kinilaw whenever I go home to Leyte. He would call my Kuya's attention if he tried to eat my share. I made him happy everytime he went up the stage because I was an honor student. I always got the best things from my daddy.

I am in no mood to write any flowery blog tonight about my dad. But I hope somehow, I made my dad's memory a part of me to you. When things are clear to me, I will make a better blog of him which he deserves.

I have never thought that the "special occassion" I have been waiting for to have the reason to go home to Leyte would be this way.

To my dad, Atty.Jesus O. Lago, you are my dad that I will never exchange for anything and anyone else. I love you and you will always be the reason why I do better everyday though it pains me to know that you will no longer be with me when I fulfill our dreams. You will always be the reason why I live a good life. Without you, I am a nobody.

Unsure.

2009-01-30T03:13:00.000-08:00

Both of us were unsure that we just didn't think of it. We went on with what we have -- Now. Everything happened so spontaneous that even my friends didn't mind it. They were just happy for me and I thank them for that.

He tried to talk with me about how he feels for me and all that we share but whenever he started talking, I always tried to change the topic to something else. I didn't want to spoil the fun we were having coz I knew he would be leaving soon. He understood.

When we were finally alone on the night before his scheduled flight to Hong Kong, I wanted to cry. Thankfully, I didn't.

I stayed quiet for quite a while that the silence was really deafening.

He tried to hold my hand and said, "I am afraid coz I don't know how you feel for me."

At first, I wanted to laugh. It reminded me of what Armando Solis (I Love Betty la Fea) once told Betty Suarez, "napatunayan ko na sa yo ang feelings ko. Ngayon, ikaw naman. Are we?"

But I knew he was serious so I kept still.

He looked at me straight to the eyes. We looked at each other. He kissed me then but I turned back and moved a bit away from him. I just couldn't stop thinking of him leaving the next day countries away from me!

I closed my eyes when I finally let him hold my hand. I hugged him right away and we said nothing for a while.

I was sleepy so he looked at me till he doze off.

When I woke up he said, "You snore so cute.You sounded like a little girl."

The best thing that happened so far

2009-01-25T01:15:00.000-08:00

Finally I have my laptop back and now I have the time to sit back, think and write my thoughts.

My friends are always there and they were there when I was found love struck that came unepectedly. I know you think, " here she goes again..." And i'd tell you, "I know, right?" Well, I thought so...

It happened so fast that I'd think it seems forever now. He was there and I was afar but still we crossed each other's paths.

Nothing was serious for me then. He was serious about everything especially if it's all about me!

He wanted me by himself and I tried to give him that though I know I couldn't just do things away from my lovely friends. So, what I did was as soon as I'd wake up, he and I would go somewhere we wanted to eat -- Jap restaurant to a Chinese Dimsum to a pizza place to Cebuano's fave Sinangag Express. We talked, talked and talked. I'd think, "will this be forever when I know it won't be?" Well, I wanted it to be!

I always have this thought that whenever you are unsure of what the future holds, just grab whatever you have then in the present and you'll somehow affect what the future brings in. And I know I just had the time of my life.

I am his everything.

Day and night.
Beer.
With or without ice.
Curls.
Blue eyes.
Sweet kisses.
Inseperable hands.
Tight hugs.
Whenever, wherever.

I always think of him as much as he thinks of me and I definitely misses the guy who looks at me whenever I sleep till he doze off hugging me.

April isn't that far I guess for a young woman waiting for her love.

To Noway with love. xoxo

Thank God I am not alone when it rains tonight.

2008-11-19T04:24:00.000-08:00

I was in my 6th grade when I discovered that I am afraid of the rain. I fear rain.

Whenever I hear the rain falling down the roof so hard, I felt like crying and would just wish that I fall asleep fast.

I was spending my vacation at my aunt's house and my cousins were already asleep. we slept beside each other.
It suddenly rained so hard that I didn't want to open my eyes. I tried so hard to sleep yet I couldn't. I stayed awake all night anxious. I would try to wake my cousins up to have some company but I guess they just loved to sleep when it's raining and cold. Why couldn't I?

That time, I didn't think I was afraid of the rain. Why should I? It's not dangerous and all. I have seen the rain before and even bathe under the rain.

But one time, I was sleeping with my mom when it started to rain so hard. I could hear it and my heart started to thump and I found it so hard to sleep again. I stayed closer to my mom and cried. Then, I held her hand so tight feeling the warmth of her touch. It soothed me and I found comfort. I was able to sleep after a few hours of fear.

I have been my own psycho yet I couldn't explain why I fear the rain and how I got it. I am not afraid of it when I am with people. I am scared during daytime or when I am outside the house.

But when I am alone in the house on my bed about to sleep and it starts to rain, I feel uneasy, and anxious . I don't understand how I feel and I tried to think about so many things.

I couldn't explain this but I try to describe the feeling for me to understand myself.

I don't want to be alone during this time and when I am with someone, I get to talk a lot just to hide the fear away.

This kind of fear is called Ombrophobia - fear of rain.

Modified Hello.

2008-11-18T14:40:00.000-08:00

"Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you? Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying,is it really you I'm waiting for?"

Last night.

2008-11-17T08:45:00.000-08:00

I was in the front seat but i never felt like being there maybe because I was used to be at the back.

Still, I don't feel the guy. He's good enough but not for me. Gawd. I just had to endure talking with him when Joyce had to go.

We just had nothing to start from except for stories about his cousin who is my colleague.

I do not even have something to tell you about him coz there's none.

Still at the Backseat Alone.

2008-11-15T08:30:00.001-08:00

Funny that I just made a blog prior to this one and I just got a forwarded message from Shak of Harakiri Mosh:

"when someone is flirting with you...

please COOPERATE."

It's funny coz that's the last thing I could not do this time even if I want to.

A guy is (I think) flirting with me as of the moment and I just find it hard to show even a bit of interest even if I feel the same way. I just think it's not the right time though it's almost Christmas and I've got no one
.
Funny coz when I started this year, I told myself and even to my close friends that I would have a limit of boyfriends coz I just had enough last year. When I said this, I was actually thinking this year would be just like the previous one.

And I'm wrong. I had a few guys whom I dated however things just got screwed up.

I had this guy who was good enough, still at the last minute, I fucked things up for one tiny bit reason and he was the last one I was able to date.

And now, Im still at the back seat alone.

Playing too safe.

2008-11-15T07:28:00.000-08:00

I now feel hesitant to show that I like the guy even when I know he likes me,too and he likes me first! Maybe it's because I don't wanna expect this time for anything from anyone. I have been through a lot of things. Maybe not that bad but definitely not the good way.

I feel like I'm playing safe this time. Being careful about everything when it comes to stuff like this. I don't wanna risk any time too precious to lose. I am no longer in a hurry and things can wait.

When I am with a guy, I try to imagine if we could be a couple and think of what would happen. But if there are no feelings, even an imagination is not acceptable at all.

But sometimes, I start to think that worrying about what would happen in the future might make things more complicated.

i glanced at him

2008-07-17T21:35:00.000-07:00

I GLANCED AT HIM

Anna Maria Victoria Lago

i was sitting and watching people doing their thing.
he suddenly came in and sat beside me.
it was nothing.
we talked and said our hi's and hello's.
i can smell him again.
his hair and his body
got me the chills of the past.
i glanced at him
and remembered everything that happened.
i cried so much for him
broke down a lot of times
got drunk and wasted.
he was all that i could think of.
and everything shattered.
i loved him
even if things were not the usual.
i glanced at him again
i remember how good and gentle he was to me
and then he turned into a beast suddenly.
i glanced at him for the last time.
i have missed those days and nights.
but i miss him no more.

a question i dare not to be asked by a guy.

2008-07-17T01:49:00.000-07:00

the question that i dare not to be asked by a guy is:

"what do you think with the way i kissed you?"

oh come on! whenever i hear that i feel like asking him back, "do you really have to ask me that?"

it's akward for me coz i really don't like to tell him what i really think unless it was really great and all.but u have kissed each other. so it's like you have agreed with the "terms and conditions" of kissing each other whether you or he kisses good or bad... well, you just have to tell him that he was really superb. it would be of course embarrassing for him to be told how sloppy,wet and lame his kiss was..right?because in times like this, words are better left unsaid. if you really have feelings for each other, every kiss you have is like a scent of flowers...that makes a kiss great and special.

it's really not my habit to ask about the way i kiss and tell him how he did.whenever i kiss my guy, i see to it that im doing what's nice for us for him not to evaluate but for him to remember everything about me.

so if you're conscious about how you kiss, never ask the person about it coz they feel twice the embarrassment you would face if you would know the truth. just kiss and have fun.

honor your mom.

2008-06-14T04:54:00.000-07:00

When you were 8 yearsold, your mom handed you an icecream. You thanked her by dripping itall over your lap.
When you were 9 years old, she paid forpiano lessons. You thanked her bynever even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old she droveyou all day, from soccer to footballto one birthday party after another.You thanked her by jumping out of thecar and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, she tookyou and your friends to the movies.You thanked her by asking to sit in adifferent row.
When you were 12 years old, she warnedyou not to watch certain TV shows. Youthanked her by waiting until she leftthe house.
When you were 13, she suggested ahaircut that was becoming. You thankedher by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a monthaway at summer camp. You thanked her byforgetting to write a single letter.
W hen you were 15, she came home fromwork, looking for a hug. You thankedher by having your bedroom door locked.
W hen you were 16, she taught you howto drive her car. You thanked her bytaking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expectingan important call. You thanked her bybeing on the phone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at yourhigh school graduation . You thankedher by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, she paid for yourcollege tuition, drove you to campuscarried your bags. You thanked her bysaying good-bye outside the dorm so youwouldn't be embarrassed in front ofyour friends.
When you were 25, she helped to payfor your wedding, and she cried andtold you how deeply she loved you. Youthanked her by moving halfway acrossthe country.
When you were 50, she fell ill andneeded you to take care of her. Youthanked her by reading about theburden parents become to theirchildren.An d then, one day, shequietlydied.And everything you never did camecrashing down like thunder on YOURHEART..& If you love your MOM, you thank her deeply...
if you think this can move lives...forward...

whoever watched this week's episode for "wish ko lang" about a mother who went crazy, you would know how i feel when i read this one. i have been a rebellious daughter to my mom and had a couple of fights with her even going as far as losing touch with my family for almost 3 months except for my brother whom i cant last having no communication with. it was this year's mothers' day that finally in some ways, i tried to lower down my pride for my mom. happily, since then mom and i haven't fought each other like the last time.
i love my mom so much no matter how much they (mom and kuya) say that im not a good daughter. i lie. i don't tell them everything. but i guess that's just how i show them my love. i admit though that i did a lot that i deserve to be scolded but one thing remains right. i love my mom so much and i don't want to see them hurt or angry again because of me.

i fail him.

2008-06-08T00:24:00.000-07:00

how sad would my parents be if i stop schooling?
i woke up early today and the sun was up. i sat outside the main door and stared at nothing. Au texted me if about school. we talked about it for a while. i have it again. being cool with the wrong things. then i said to myself, what if im gonna stop even just for this sem...well,i could focus on my job then and all. but i came to my senses, i might lose my interest for school if i choose to stop.

and it hit me. my mom and dad. i had this call with my dad last march...

Dad: yang,musta ang studies mo?
me: ok lang,dad...
Dad: isa lang ang dream namin ng mommy mo for you. ang makatapos ka sa pag-aaral.

i dont wanna fail my dad. but i am right now. he couldnt read my blog but at least you guys would know that i love my family so much despite my being rebellious and all.
i just hope i could go back to school and be the student i was.

We will miss you, Paul Anthony.

2008-05-27T03:16:00.000-07:00

"He shot himself because of his "grades". As what the rumors have spread through text messages. He was found dead in their compound and was known to have died last May 22 but was found on the 24th. He was a nursing student."
-an excerpt from Nikki's blog about Paul Anthony.
it caught my attention when i read the updates in my multiply inbox. she's in my 2nd degree contacts and her latest blog was entitled "in memory of paul anthony mabaquiao".
we will indeed miss you,Paul Anthony Mabaquiao.

a tribute to my friend: Paul Anthony mabaquiao

2008-05-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

i woke up late as it is my rest day and was out last night with joyce and jp.
back to what i should be writing here.. again,i said i woke up late... with a message from my elementary classmate. he sent me a message:

"anna, ka-remember pa kang paul mabaquiao? kadtong taas gud nga imu crush pag grade 6."

i was full awaken when i read the message. i texted him back right away and asked how and why.

he replied, "cya ra'y nakahibaw nganu. nag suicide siya pag thursday. today pa nahibaw-an."
i was a bit shaken when i knew this.

we were schoolmates for one year only and he was my crush back then. i was in the pilot class and he was in the other section.

back in grade 6, he was this tallest boy and i was for the girls. he would always come to school just in time for the flag ceremony and he would go to his line and will look straight to my eyes. he was a silent and shy boy. but if he was with his friends, he was this boy who liked to joke around.
we knew each other but we weren't close.

one time, i passed by their group and they sang me this song with my name in it. i was like so kilig and i loved it. hahaha :)

we both joined the poster making contest and represented our school. i lost and he won.
practice for graduation day. we stood beside each other for our graduation song as we were the tallest. we would look at each other and just smiled.

graduation day came. we sang the song and we held hands when the song was about to end. that was the last time i saw him.

and now, this news came to me all the way from leyte. memories are all that i have of him. whatever reason he had, i just pray that his soul will find its peace though not in this world but wherever he is right now.

i just wish that i knew him more than i did. it's sad.

a schoolmate. my crush.

paul anthony mabaquiao.

hypocrisy

2008-02-03T17:46:00.000-08:00

there are really people who can actually pretend nothing has happened.

CDMC Album Launch!

2008-02-03T17:41:00.000-08:00

CoolieDread & The Micophone Commanders
:::::WATER FOR YOUR SOUL :::::
THE ALBUM LAUNCH!!!

Catch CDMC wid dem hot smokingdancehall regggae tunes live!!!
at Tequila Joe's on
February 16, 2008
Dancehall Party Starts 9pm...

alongside with artists
featured in the album:
LionHeartGeorge of Santing Scalawags
Clayton of Pasakanin

also performances by:
SkankinBrews
Santing Scalawags
and
PowerSpoonz

Buy the CD for only P250
and get the official CDMC pin & sticker
free for the first 10 to get a copy
Entrance Fee: Php100
Tequila Joe's Bar and Restaurant
Ayala Entertainment Center
Cebu City, CEBU 6000

Fete De La Rue at One Mango Avenue

2008-01-16T04:08:00.000-08:00

Fete De La Rue at One Mango Avenue with three distinctively-themed parties on Januay 18-20,2008

January 18,2008
Pinatikai '08

2nd National Tattoo Competition

Featuring performances by:
Pasakanin
SkankinBrews
Bambu Spliff
Santing Scalawags
Toy Souljah
Shrubs
Ogotip
S.T.I.F and many more!

January 19,2008 (Saturday)
Urban Joint

A night of pure RnB featuring Cebu's top djs: Dj Mark, Dj Baby Chino and Dj Carlow
with a Street Couture Fashion Show with AD Models directed by Dexter Alazas

January 20,2008 (Sunday)
Circo de Tribale

a fusion of techno and tribal with Dj Bong Durano with Dj Frank Einstein mixing with the beats from Mungkahan!
Belly dancing exhibition with sexy sinulog/tribal dancers plus a mardi gras costume parade and competition with big prizes at stake for its winners.

it's not just about you.

2008-01-16T03:56:00.000-08:00

blogging. i do this not to impress coz there's nothing to be proud of with the words i use coz i know i'm no writer. i just wanna share my thoughts and the things happening in my life. i write my blogs here and in multiply,too where lots of people belong. i have many friends and i write about them,too especially those i'm in contact with. this i wanna say that if ever things about you fit in with the blogs i made, there's no connection at all. it just happened to be similar or so. when i write blogs about someone i know, i actually tell them about it. it is not unlikely that you would see blog entries to be talking about anything made by one of your contacts. don't assume it's just about you.

i am his.

2008-01-16T03:41:00.000-08:00

YOU ARE TO ME
By: OnLyViC

Wherever you are, I go.
Your eyes can see me through
Yet you don't know what i truly feel
My heart and mind combat with each other
'Coz what we are is something that does not exist

Whatever you say, I do.
You are to me a bliss
That leaves me nothing but a heart of wounds
The only thing that I'm happily left with
Is your scent that lingers in my body

Ecstasy is nothing compared
To you touching me high to a rapturous excitement
My addiction of you is now meant to be
A missing part of the labyrinth you made
A lacuna between you and me

You are to me a curio
Someone I love in despite of
You are to me a sweet temptation
That i can't resist at all
Can you do it again?
Make love to me even for a while
Undo this tears I have shed for you
M y feelings to you
I know is cryptic no more.

to you who rocked my world

2008-01-16T03:40:00.000-08:00

IT'S YOU
By: OnLyViC

We said our his and hellos to each other
Exchanged numbers
And our day didn't last without a message from you to me
You treat me like a princess
And never fail to make me feel so adored by you
With your ardent kiss
And those eyes that see me through
You make me feel like I'm the only one.

We made love till our bodies can take no moRe
Your scent sticks and memories of you stay forever
It's been a while since the last call I got from you
But I'm still waiting
I miss the way you call my name
Why doesn't my pride make me run
And hide from all the pain
Now I ask where are you?

I so wanted to turn back time
The ony time you asked me what you are to me
But I was too shy to tell you everything
That it's you who I want to end my day with
It's you who I just want to make love all night long
Time has passed
I know when I try to feel you,
It hurts.

killing time with a friend's voice.

2008-01-11T02:50:00.000-08:00

i'm actually now here at my office facing my computer for like 2 hours already. i have been working and now i'm taking my rest. talking about being lazy,eh? hahaha.

i have this good friend who has a band. before we became friends, i was actually a fan of their band.i even made their music as my subject for my research paper. i even had a grade of 1.25 for that! boy,was i so glad when we were introduced by the guy i was going out with. though at first, i didn't believe him.hahaha. oh well, we're now good friends!

anyway, i'm actually not doing anything right now but having my fingers exercised on the keyboard hoping it will prouduce a beautiful music. haha. corny,i know.

i couldn't write anything sensible right now (as if i do before)... so, i decided to download music to my phone from the computer.

suddenly, i have thought about my friend and...gee,i miss him. haha!

i have actually burned their songs last year in a cd however my player isn't working well anymore. thanks to my job and i could actually do anything i want with the use of the internet!

yeah! i have downloaded their songs and copied them to my phone. i so like his voice. so different and i could really identify him with his way of singing. it's just so him.

i'm having the pleasure of listening to their songs right now.

you are just the most hypocrite person i know.

2008-01-10T03:48:00.000-08:00

There are really guys who aren't satisfied with what they have -- their girlfriends.

what else is new then? this has been a part of our everyday lives. nothing has changed.

i have been a two-timer myself. yet i know why. it's because i don't love the person at all. for me,we're just dating. it isn't my fault then if they think we're actually lovers. im just being real here. i only date guys. no love.

however, what i'm trying to point out here is that, these guys who usually two-time are as a matter of fact in love with their girlfriends...well, that's according to them. yet,i know they really are. so, why then look for other girls if they are really in love? why tell the other girl he likes him and all when he knows who really loves and who to choose in the end when things come to worse. but i guess, the concept of "what she doesn't know won't hurt her" comes in then.

in my own opinion, those people who two-time are those who haven't found their love and all those mushy words you can actually describe it... that's one reason why they can get to collect and collect till they can't insert the new girls to their schedules. i am one of them. even my brother... i think that runs in our blood then. at least we're being real here.

why say you love her, when you're actually cheating on her. don't give me the reason that you guys aren't yet married. that's so cliche, dude.

why cheat when you're afraid to be dumped my your girlfriend'boyfriend then?you don't wanna lose him/her yet you're doing the most dreaded thing that would hurt your partner.

what i want to tell you guys here is that i don't condemn two-timers coz i would be a hypocrite here then... but to those people, boys and girls, who tell the whole world how much they're in love yet he/she is cheating. better say you're not in love at all, then i think you can date more girls than you can take.

you and i are friends. i respect you except for what you are acting like. you talk about being real yet you're just the most hypocrite person i know. but that doesn't change us. we're stil friends. that's what we are.

an email from Aleks

2008-01-10T02:32:00.000-08:00

Aleks, a friend of mine sent me an email today and I enjoyed reading it. lemme share them to you:

In Lebanon, men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the animals must be female. Having sexual relations with a male animal are punishable by death.

In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman's genitals,but is prohibited from looking directly at them during the examination. He may only see their reflection in a mirror.

Muslims are banned from looking at the genitals of a corpse. This also applies to undertakers; the sex organs of the deceased must be covered with a brick or piece of wood at all times.

The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation.

There are men in Guam whose full-time job is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the privilege of having sex for the first time… Reason: Under Guam law, it is expressly forbidden for virgins to marry.

In Hong Kong, a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous husband, but may only do so with her bare hands. The husband's lover, on the other hand, may be killed in any manner desired.

Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool, England - but only in tropical fish stores.

In Cali, Colombia, a woman may only have sex with her husband, and the first time this happens, her mother must be in the room to witness the act.

In Santa Cruz, Bolivia, it is illegal for a man to have sex with a woman and her daughter at the same time.

In Maryland, it is illegal to sell condoms from vending machines with one exception: prophylactics may be dispensed from a vending machine only in places where alcoholic beverages are sold only for the consumption in the premises

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

If you fart consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.

A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour. (Wanna become slim? try it! …. but I'm still not over that pig thing)

Elephants are the only animal that cannot jump. (OK, so that would be a good thing…. )

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. (Is that why Flipper is always smiling? What about the pig?!)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head, before it starves to death.

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.

The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own weight and always falls over on its right side when intoxicated. (From drinking bottles of? Did the govt. pay for this research??)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. Butterflies taste with their feet.

A cat's urine glows under a blacklight. (I wonder who was paid to figure that out.)

Polar bears are left handed. (Who knew…? Who cares!)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than it's brain. (I know some people like that.)

Starfish don't have brains. (I know some people like that too.)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (In my next life, I STILL want to be a pig … quality over quantity!)

a quote...

2008-01-09T02:49:00.000-08:00

i was with my dad and kuya in Ayala. we went to National Bookstore because my Dad has to buy a new dictionary..and he bought me a new thesaurus,too! it's his Christmas gift for me. haha! while i was walking around as they were looking for a new dictionary, i came across this book. i forgot the title though. ..yet something caught my attention. lemme quote it for you guys...:

"And we forget because we must... not because we will."

-Matthew Arnold

taga UP ko!

2008-01-02T18:50:00.000-08:00

i went to a store in front of my bro's house to buy a few sticks of skag. there were a group of people staying around.

V: te, marlboro nya.. puwa..
A: pila?
V: singko ra,te.

then the girl gave 3 sticks to me.

i was about to go and had actually passed by the group when suddenly,

Boy 1: idol...idol...

i didn't look back of course.

Boy 2: san carlos ka skwela, idol?

when i heard that, i felt weird.... noooo!!

V: dili. taga UP ko! (i snapped)

then walked away and left them speechless and awed. haha.

Simply ME

2008-01-02T01:59:00.000-08:00

i'm no genius
And didn't claim to be at all
I'm no smart-ass chick
Who strut my way out of you
I'm no show off
Who takes people out of the picture
I'm simply me and myself

I am confident
And is contented of what I have
I am no writer
Who brags of the words I know
'Coz I write straight from my heart
Simply me and myself

What then can you take from me?
Nasty things you spreas
but I ain't got nothing to lose
I am just a nobody
Who lives life not for you
I have my wits
And I'm no fool to step down from it

Where then do i stand from you?
I'm here and you're nowhere
What more can I take from you
When you even have nothing
You mocked me
'Coz you know I ain't gonna talk shit about you
That's just not me.

You and I aren't perfect
Yet I know what I got
A world of no pretense
Just simply me and myself
I ain't gonna step you about the things you say
Your words reflect the kind that you are
Way too far from what I have become

house arrest!

2008-01-02T01:39:00.000-08:00

i have been house arrested by my mom and bro. they let me stay at my bro's house days before new year's day. they hid my clothes. good thing i was able to spare some important ones. i was even able to break out from the prison and went to see Poldo and then celebrated debut bestfriend with the rest of my besties. during one of my sleepless nig hts i smoked a little while my mom was out of the house. i texted her to bring me some food either pizza or my fave mc nuggets with coke float. 30 mins later, she texted me that she's on her way home. boy, was i happy when i saw what she brought! just what i have asked for. i had 2 boxes of mc nuggets and 2 fries with my very own coke float! i just wish being in prison would be this fun!

the year that was....

2007-12-31T22:41:00.000-08:00

Every year, we usually say is the best year in our lives. but this i gotta say that this year may not be the best year in my life but it's something that i'll never forget.

this year is the time when i learned to come out from my closet.

it has been my dream to have my first million on or before i reach 21. however someone said not to take things seriously coz we we never know that the million means no money. i realized indeed it's not about the money at all.

this year I got to know new friends and more about my old chums. there are those who I thought will never leave but they just did. people actually come and go. No one will stay coz they'all all go away even those you think will not.

I think about my bestfriends and the promises we made when we were about to graduate from highschool. we told ourselves that we're gonna see each other once a month no matter how busy we get to be. but of course it never happened. even in the first month after graduation, things were a lot different.we see each other no more. it'll be a surprise if get to bump into ourselves and say, "hey! you're here."

but deep inside, though we're walking separate paths now, let me quote what y bestfriend Pearl said to me, "we will always be the same persons who promised to be carefree,outspoken and fun loving."
how i miss my bestfriends so much. they were when i got my first kiss and my heart broken.they were always there and will always be in my heart yet things won't be like the old days.

this year, i have met new people who in ways they never know have actually made a difference in me.

i got to mingle and drink with the young men from Kamputhaw. i got to discover beauty in despit of... something i didn't expect at all to happen.

i had my first real job where i got to jive in somehow with the real world... where real things happen. people live to survive. this is where i have learned to make both ends in my life meet. i have been independent and lived a life where mistakes are normal.

i got to meet new guys who i can include in my list. and again,i'm in love with someone. dangerously in love.

it's funny, you know, when things turn up when you least expect it. it's like one day you realize that the bees and the flowers your mom told you about may be slightly different from you have first imagined.

i screwed up...and so? i'm happy.

there's nothing i have regret doing though i wish i could have done more and better.

there are so much to thank in my life this time and i'm so overwhelmed about how things turned to be. it wasn't what i have dreamed of during my late sleep night when i was a kid yet this was something I will always be thankful of. lif is indeed a sweet mystery. so much is in store for me I know and I'll always be that willing to explore, learn and accept what life has to offer me. in the end, I'll be able to serve my purpose. I know.

never too late

2007-12-28T21:40:00.000-08:00

i have never dreamed of becoming a writer until i spent the whole summer and my 5th grade with my aunt Vianney who happens to be as young as my elder brother. she writes and reads books a lot.she lent me her novels not to mention her room where i also stay was actually like a library. she was then my role model that i told my mom i wanna spend one school year in her school.

i became a member of the writers' club and joined this poem writing in school though i forgot what it was all about or if i did win that time. i was the top borrower in our school library and was chosen to compete during the literature quiz bee. yes, i have turned into a bookworm and made me need to wear glasses. talking about fashion,eh? haha well, that was the time when Betty la Fea wasn't known.

i went back to my old school during my 6th grade. however, it didn't stop me from becoming what my Are Vian was. i joined our school paper and had to write a news story to qualify. results came out and i was chosen to be the news editor however the next day, i found out i was promoted to associate editor-in-chief. i didn't know what it all was but i knew it was something higher that i expected i will be.

i have started to become active in school not to mention i was the over-all cheerleader of our team and even became the champion during the intramurals. but the thing i was so happy with was writing. i was one of the 6 writers chosen to represent our school for the school press confenrence.

i won 3 awards for the division level with my highest as first placer in the English Copyreading and Headline writing which was my first time to encounter such event. then we were sent to the regionals. before we went our way, my classmates cheered for us. then my bestfriend who i had a fight with during those times gave me a slip of paper. i didn't read it until we were in the bus. when i started to read it, i cried. i couldn't remember though the things i have read there but i remeber we became better friends after the regionals when we came back to school and she was waiting for me.

my fellow writers and i won during the regionals. unfortunately, our editor-in-chief didn't. i even saw my Ate Vian during the awarding ceremony. she won fourth placer for Photojournalism. i hugged her.

this was all i had when i started to like writing. but it changed when i transferred here in Cebu. i no longer had time to read books and even write stuff. i am a masscom student but i'm no longer a writer. i'm trying though to write and improve myself to catch up with the time i have wasted. it's never too late, i guess.

my inaanak

2007-12-28T21:20:00.000-08:00

jenikka michelle roque-aragon came to our beautiful world on december 1,2007 at exactly 2:38 pm! congratulations to my very dear friend mikki! wee-oh-wee! we now have our little angel. these pictures were taken from my phone on the second day of nikka here on earth... yehey!

this is my inaanak. as much as im happy for mikki, i feel so blessed to be her godmother. thank you,ki for sharing to me such blessing. she's our little angel that indeed keeps us going in life. i love you, mikki and baby nikka!

click here for more photos of our adorable nikka.

Powerspoonz interviewed by Chezka

2007-12-28T20:53:00.000-08:00

i came to know POWERSPOONZ through a good friend Paul of CDMC. i once heard them play during the launching of Cebu Events in Paseo.

i once had this talk with a friend about them and she told me how much she loves their music. she asked me if i could ask my friend Pauldo to help her get an interview with them for our journ where we are required to publish an article about a personality.

fortunately, i got the number of Yanix from my friend Zarah Smith. he was once introduced to me by Pauldo so i tried to text him and told him about the interview. he said sure. i was then the one setting up for the interview.

finally on decemebr 13,2007, i have accompanied my classmate Chezka for her interview with her idol band. i was like the photographer during the interview.

"i had the chance to interview one of my favorite local bands..they're really cool.. i enjoyed every minute of the interview.. they're music is awesome!"

-Chezka

click here for more photos of the interview.

nightmare

2007-12-28T03:29:00.000-08:00

i sleep late till dawn and wide awake during the day.

i was with a very good friend last december 23,2007. we had a few drinks like usual days we spend and then we went to their house to rest. we slept in one room yet different beds. we talked for a while and decided to sleep. but of course, i couldn't sleep immediately. i was just toying with my mobile while my friend was already asleep. suddenly, he was moaning like having some bad dream. i was afraid. this was my second time i have seen someone having a dream like this. the first one was my mom when i was only 5 years old and i didn't dare wake her up coz i was afraid. good thing my aunt heard her from the other room and woke her up. i was told then that whenever someone is having a bad dream,i should wake him/her up. so, i tried to shook my friend so that he could wake up. he did. but he didn't know he had a dream and went back to sleep.

after that,i fell asleep. i was like half awake though. and it hit me. i couldn't move. i tried to raise my left hand and reach for my friend. but i couldn't. i tried to wave my right hand. it moved but it fell down back to the bed. i screamed! but no sound was produced. i was so scared that i looked to my friend but there was this black spirit coming out from his face. there i started to pray to God and said the Lord's Prayer. after a few seconds, i woke up! but i was with somebody else. it wasn't my friend i was with. i screamed and prayed again. then i felt my friend's hand. finally, i was truly awake!

i told then my friend about what happened.i was afraid to go back to sleep in that room so we decided to sleep in their living room. i was in the sofa and he was at the other chair. then i fell asleep and had the same dream but good thing was my friend would tap my head from tiem to time then i woke up.

when we woke up in the morning, he let me ride the cab however i didn't went home straight. i passed by Sto. Rosario church to have my confession. i was near to death that time but i know i wasnt ready to face it.

The Prince and Me

2007-12-28T03:20:00.000-08:00

"What if there really is a handsome prince?

But he's a really good kisser.

What if you just know you're in love?

And all the things you thought were important don't matter anymore,

because the most importantthing is to be with him.

Then it's not some silly fantasy.

It's actually real.

I mean, don't you think those

two people should be together?"

i was with ming for the whole day and spent together catching up with each other's time. it's been a while since the last time we laid down our thoughts together. we even went to my brother's place to join their little celebration. then we visited our very dear friend mikki in chong hua hospital as she had given birth to an adorable little angel. lastly, we went home to ming's place as we had been waiting for the movie "just my luck" in star movies. i actually have seen the movie however ming hasn't. then the movie was on. but it was something i never expected to be something that have touched my heart.

click here for full story.

Lonely but not Alone

2007-12-26T02:52:00.000-08:00

12/26/07

this has been another cold Christmas for me and it's been a while since the last time i felt its spirit. however, i have you guys...
my bestfriends
LIDE,SPC, CIC main and CNU-ILS batch '06
BAMKWAN
Comm UP
UP family and
my old and new friends :)

my life's never been this good. thank you so much to those who have greeted me. may we all have what we've been waiting for as Christmas day has passed yet another new year is up coming for us. now i have mine.

it's you.
merry christmas and a prosperous new year to you!

3 Days Before Christmas

2007-12-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

Christmas is really fast approaching. Christmas lights are up again. vendors along Gorordo Avenue are too busy putting up their business tilldawn. Christmas songs are on radios over and over again. families are busy setting up their own homes.lovers arewrapping gifts together for their love ones. and friends are too excited to exchange gifts among them. i know i should be writing stuff about the season. however i just couldn'tfeel the spirit around me.this is gonna be our first christmas here in cebu with my family. well, it's better than spending it in our province. it's gonna be our dad's birthday on the 25th and he will be arriving here in cebu anytime from now.

Listen...Listen...Listen...

2007-12-20T02:50:00.000-08:00

12/20/07

"Listen to the Rain" is a song written by Amy Lee of Evanescence. It was sung by a choir from the Pulaski Academy in Little Rock, Arkansas, at Lee's graduation ceremony. It was originally going to be on Evanescence's 2000 demo CD, Origin, in between the end of the first part of the song "Eternal" and after the second part, with "Demise" as the outro. However, it was ultimately cut from the track listing. (Wikipedia)
i have encountered this song just now in MP3-codes.com. who wouldn't be captivated by the voice of Evanescence? coz i love the song as much as i have loved their previous songs.

Maayong Pasko Bamkwan!

2007-12-19T02:45:00.000-08:00

12/19/07

BAMKWAN is the present sophomore masscom students of UP cebu. the name originally came from their year and program last year which was BAMC 1. They celebrated their Christmas part in Royal Concourse last Dec. 14,2007. just so you know these are my classmates. click here for more wacky photos.

Young men of Kamputhaw

2007-12-18T02:33:00.000-08:00

in my first year in UP, i was living among the four walls of UP Dorm. curfew at 9pm. gates closed at 10pm. hot water. 8 students in 1 room. movie watching. room hopping. noisy study room. lovers' pda. lights off. i joined some orgs whose members drink a lot. i hang out with those from the higher year levels. little by little, UP "dormers" rarely see me at home. haha. that was the time that we stay late outside drinking and talking...and i was introduced to the place called Kamputhaw..

honestly, i was not comfortable with the kind of environment they have here.a lot of "tambays" are here. however, i never heard them calling me... even a "psst.." unlike in other places where guys would make "bastos" to you by making "papansin"... i even joke around my friends and say:

"wa lagi mu-sitsit nko or manawag nko nga mga boys? dli tingali ko girl for them.." hahaha.

i just wonder why.

then i found my answers last week.

i passed by the basketball court and some friends who were drinking called me. dakay, lloyd (have i gotten the spelling right?) and cleng. they were with some young men of kamputhaw whom i have already seen in my less than 2 years stay here. i stayed with them and i had my answers.

i was introduced with those guys. i was kind of surprised when tow of them said that they see me often with my friends. we talked and drank til closing time.....

days after, some of those guys saw and called me. i holla back. time continues... days go by. i met them again. friendly and warm are the words i can describe them with. they may drink a lot. tambay as their hobby. they may not look like those fancy guys.but they are indeed not "bastos"... it figures why they didn't make "psst..psst.." to me or any sort of "papansin" everytime a girl passes by.

one of them even offered me his umbrella when he saw me walking and of course i thanked them though i did not take his umbrella.

you will really not know someone until you get to know them.